Sometimes

Sometimes
I feel good entertaining my wicked sense of humor,
Sometimes
I feel bad sacrificing my gain for the benefit of another.

Sometimes
it feels good doing the worst things,
Sometimes
it makes you feel bitter when you give.

Sometimes
it is more confusing with the facts than with lies,
Sometimes
it is more comfortable to believe illusions than reality.

Sometimes
I am betrayed by being honest,
Sometimes
I am honest by lying to the victim.

Sometimes
Even I doubt if my heart is really good or evil,
Yet I know that both dwells within my struggling soul

- GS

My Secret Introvert

My secret introvert, my secret indeed,
a refuge in darkness when I am in need.
Where chaos abounds, with you I find peace.

My secret introvert, you are my strength,
you always find me when I am a wreck.
When I have fallen, you're still my friend.

My secret introvert, we both are one,
you and I both were never in want.
The day you leave me, what will I become?

- Larry

Girl from My Past

Girl from my past,
She came to the present,
She is unknown to me,
She is a mystery.

Girl from my past
Showed me the future,
Gave me a surprise,
Made me a promise.

Girl from my past,
She disappears,
She vanished again,
She never came back.

Girl from my past,
We'll meet again,
If we ever do,
Promise you'll stay.

Deep

What is deep?
Is it the ocean, or is it the heart?

What is unsearchable?
Is it a myth, or an undiscovered path?

What is unsung?
Is it the brave souls, or a guardian unknown?

What is deep?
Merely an ignorance to meanings untold.

- GS

Colors

Fill my soul, with colors light,
cyan, baby blue, yellow's bright,
grant me joy and blissful delight.

Paint my soul, with colors bold,
purple, indigo, red and gold,
give me courage to have and hold.

Stain my soul, with colors dark,
crimson, ebony, oak brown bark,
fill my past with a shadow's mark.

Made

I - am not an accident, forced to live on curses of mistakes.

I - am not a looser by birth, only loser by choice.

I - am not born to die, because I intend to live forever.

I - am not set for a goal on earth, but set for a higher call.

I am made, not a byproduct.

-Larry

Ashes and Rise

Unexpectedly, a beautiful let down,
Unexpectedly, a graceful departure.
We all suffer that little defeat,
A gentle fall to the ground.

Unpredictably, an indescribable peace,
Unpredictably, a fitting replacement.
We all have that little prayer,
A still whisper in the dark.

- GS 

Lessons of Life

Let pain be a visitor,
for he is an encourager of the weak.
A man that perseveres the night,
he never lets you quit.
He give aid through the night,
and leaves when morning comes.

Let loneliness be a friend,
for she is a companion of the weary.
An angel who watches the days,
she always know your need.
She sleeps not when you're lost,
and leaves when you're found.

Let sorrow be a teacher,
For he is the wise man of the fool.
A mentor that trains the will,
He never doubts your strength.
He allows your every fall,
and picks you up at every turn.

- Larry Yap

The Extra Mile

Here's my extra mile,
Two mites and a willing heart,
Hope it's not too little to give,
Pray you make use of it.
May it bring you blessings.

Here's my extra mile,
Five loaves and two fishes,
Hope it is sufficient for all,
Pray these be enough to give.
May it fulfill your hunger.

Here's my extra mile,
The cross and all my blood,
A hope that you may find,
Pray one day you understand.
May it bring you peace.

- Larry Yap

The Little Black Door

I keep asking if I am alone,
I keep wondering if I am gone.
I keep thinking my worst thoughts,
I keep facing the little black door.

I know nothing of these wars,
I couldn't care less to know more.
I only want to leave it all,
Behind the lock of the little black door.

I had been there before,
I knew the scars and their lore.
Now all I want is to lock the door,
And throw away the keys - to my little black door.

A Hand In Marriage

To have and to hold, a price too high to pay,
To cherish and love, a burden too heavy to lift.
To give and to take, a promise too hard to keep,
To trust and forgive, a weight too much to hold.

To know and to learn, a price to be paid,
To share and show, a load to be lifted.
To receive and bless, a covenant to be kept,
To pray and keep, a gift to be upheld.

- Larry

Passed

What's in the past stays in the past, I do not need my ghost to follow my shadow.
What's in the mistakes or the glory, I will know their retribution and rewards.
What's in the secrets and the truth, I do not wish to reveal without wisdom.
What's in the exposed and the light, I will do my best to give justification.

- Larry

Valentine, Valentine

Valentine, Valentine,
hear the lonely hearts tonight.
Bring to them thy beautiful light,
and guide their hearts to a home tonight.

Valentine, Valentine,
listen to the silent cries.
Please be gentle, please be kind,
may thy cupid's aim be true and right.

Valentine, Valentine,
bind the broken hearts tonight.
Give them wings and let them fly,
love is a treasure for them to find.

- GS

The Executioner's Call

Hollow soul, flesh and bone,
make your way to the white tombstone.
Follow me, to the trees,
leave your soul for man to weep.

Don't you stop, don't you fret,
death waits not your sins to bear.
Don't you hope, don't you pray,
mercy won't save you this day.

Hollow soul, flesh and bone,
your head for every sin you sow.
God on high, judge this soul,
show him mercy where we don't.

- GS

What Makes You

What makes you strong
is not the might of your hand
but the strength of a courageous man.

What makes you wise
is not the accuracy of your choice
but the mistake of a once foolish man.

What makes you move
is not the strength of your feet
but the purpose of a driven man.

What makes you rise
is not the breathe of your air
but the sacrifice of a God, made man.


- GS

The Beast

Coming after you,
It's teeth are razor sharp,
Coming after you,
I think it's best you run.

Coming after you,
It dashes with the wind,
Coming after you,
It strikes out like the light.

Coming after you,
It's presence cloaked in fear,
Coming after you,
It's prowess unrivalled.

Coming after you,
Aye, it's only eyes on you,
Coming after you,
The beast is hunting you.

- GS